I will definitely check both essays out. I don’t claim white out of any sort of pride. Just that in this society people see me as white whether I identify as white or not. I need to see what it means to be labeled white and what gets put on me because of that.

In terms of identifying as a racist, I think I am a person who sometimes is unawarely racist. I have done and sais racist things in the past. I was raised in a subtly racist social milieu. Not overt in your face racism. Anyway - as a person I have also done and said anti racist things. I’m not a racist nor am I an anti racist. I’m a person who keeps deciding to be anti racist and sometimes fails. I like Kendi’s book where he uses himself as an example of a person who has done racist things without meaning to. He refers to a speech he gave in high school, which now seems racist to him. I think we need to take some of the charge out of the word “racist” because we will never learn or change if we can’t talk about mistakes people make.